My Life In 2021

I sit here every day, thinking to myself, "What can you be doing better? How can I make money?" Yet I still procrastinate on everything. I want to be successful but how? you need money to make money, I don't want a "traditional" 9-5 job where I feel empty in what I am doing. I want to be happy with what I do but I also want to be making money from it. I'm only 17 and with the coronavirus very much making it difficult to do things that used to be so easy, these thoughts flood my mind as I inch closer to being on my own and figuring out how to be a productive adult. In the year 2021, there are so many things that distract you from becoming successful. Mainly the amount of dopamine we receive from all these short videos on TikTok, or youtube, or playing games. You can turn these into money-making machines if you have the mind and humor for it. but when your someone like me who struggles in even the most basic social interactions, life becomes a much harder thing to beat and become a success. my best bet is to put all my brain power into what I know how to do best and that's building computers and making them faster then they would be out of the box. with my lack of proper education, mostly due to how young I am It becomes quite difficult to do these things as not many people want to invest in a beginner. but how do I get better if no one is willing to put some faith in my skills? not only that but I also don't have a job so I don't have the money to do what I want to do. I have worked before at a timmies however that only lasted 2 weeks and I freaked out from social anxiety... its a crappy thing to have. if you can socialize no problem you wouldn't quite understand the struggles. but I lack humor, I lack faith in myself, and I feel like I'm constantly getting judged. anyway, I just wanted to write this to see if anyone relates and just to spread my thoughts without having to vocally say them. thank you for reading this and I would love all of your opinions.